First Love

Posted for Sunday Scribblings

I put a lot of thought into this one and almost decided not to write this week. Not to say that I did not have a first love, I truely did. But what do I write about that would really be worthy of this subject.

1. My first 'puppy' love - Brian Butler in kindergarten
2. My first love when I was racing barrels in junior high - I met him again later when I was in college and realized I was more in love with his horse, Power than I was with him.
3. My first love in high school - that one was a huge disappointment

In the end I decided to write about one of my first loves that means more to me than anything in this world. I met my husband in high school and we started dating our Senior year. While he was my first 'true' love, he gave me three gifts that truely showed me what 'love at first sight' meant. In fact he has taught me this three times.

The first was on June 6, 2001 when our beautiful daugther was born. I'd heard others talk about what a miracle birth is and the feelings you have when you first hold your baby in your arms, however until you actually do so, you don't truely understand the depth or the preciousness of these feelings! It is hard to even describe in words. It is the ultimate definition of love at first sight.

Immediately, you have feelings so strong that you would do anything to protect and create a good life for this little bundle that is laid in your arms. No matter what anyone says, newborns are NOT cute. Especially the first time you lay eyes on them. They are slimly and usually a bit deformed looking. But at that moment you do not see any of this. All you see if this beautiful baby that is a part of you and that is totally dependent upon you and your heart fills with love to a capacity you never thought possible.

Then I think of the fact that what the Lord feels for me (and always has) is so much greater than what I feel when I look at my little ones. I am 'slimy' with all the sin in my life, but he does not see any of this. He sees someone who he created and loves me unconditionally no matter what.

My little ones are not only my first love, but also make me appreciate so much more how the Lord feels for me. That is a gift in and of itself!

I've now learned what love at first sight is three times, the most recent just 3 weeks ago. It is an amazing feeling!