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Over the past three weeks I’ve shared with you the “stages” the Lord has taken me through as He has begun a major transformation process in my life. I’ve walked you through how He revealed His great abiding love and began to help me to truly understand it. How He began to dive deep into my heart and soul to uncover the deepest, darkest and ugliest parts of my life in order to bring healing. And I’ve shared how He has begun to reveal to me the truth about standing with Him while loving others. I pray my transparency regarding my journey will help you in yours. I know that just writing these posts has blessed me tremendously.
I wish I could say the transformation process is over, that I’m a finished and perfected clay vessel. But if these past three weeks have confirmed anything for me, it is that we are all continuous works in process. There is always more to be revealed. These “stages” I’ve shared with you are not a 3 step process that results in a fully transformed mind, heart and soul. Instead they are a cycle which the Lord will take you through repeatedly for the rest of your life. You’ll be able to look back and see how far you’ve come and rejoice in it. And you can also look forward and know you have a lot still to learn. But don’t let this be a discouragement, instead it should be exciting, a sense of expectation. The Lord will continue to transform you as long as you allow Him.
As you continue to yield your life to Him each day and to step down off the throne of your lives, He will reveal His love for you anew, He will reveal the darkness in your heart and heal you, and He will give you His eyes and His heart to see and love the world as He does.
Randy Alcorn wrote a book I love called Edge of Eternity. It reminds me quite a bit of Pilgrim’s Progress. In the story the main character is traveling along a road. As he does he sees two cities. The closest is beautiful and full of wonderful things. At the top of the many tall buildings, he can see that each citizen has their own throne upon which they sit surrounded by vast riches. Far off he sees another city, but it is dark and depressing and only has one throne. However, as he travels farther down this road, his goal being to reach the King’s City, his perspective begins to change. The city in front of him, the one that was depressing and only had one throne begins to become stunningly beautiful, more so than he ever could have imagined. Behind him the city he had thought so beautiful before has become dark. He realizes the thrones that each person sat upon were really tangled webs that held them captive. The people living in the city thought they were free and powerful, but in reality they were in bondage. I read this book a few years back, but this image has stayed with me. It is a powerful picture of our lives.
In your journal today, ask yourself - where are you on this road? Which city do you have your sights set on? Lynn has asked many times during this journey if you are still waking each morning and coming before the Lord on your knees, stepping off the throne of your life and handing it over to Him who truly rules. This is so powerful!
As I sign off on my last post for this 30 day journey I first want to thank all of you. I came into this praying the Lord would give me words to help others and bring Him glory. He has done far more than I could have ever imagined. In some ways I’ve grown as much in the past three weeks as I did over the two years which I’ve shared with you. You have all been part of this transformation for me. I love the way the Lord uses us and our weaknesses to bless others. Isn’t He amazing?
I also want to leave you with a few tidbits the Lord has reminded me of and impressed upon me through this journey.
First, as I said above this is all a transformation process that will continue until we meet our Lord face to face. Look over how far the Lord has brought you and rejoice. Look forward to all that He still has to reveal to you with expectation and excitement. He will continually take you through these stages in one form or another. There are always more layers to peel back as He reveals Himself to us. Always remember He loves you and only wants what is best for you. He has a destiny for you, Beloved. You just need to give Him control of your life and He will lead you there.
Second, God looks at our hearts. I am doing a study of David with my house church right now. Or more specifically we are studying David’s heart. Have you ever wondered what the difference between Saul and David was? Both were anointed by Samuel per the Lord’s instructions, both were filled with the Holy Spirit in a time when the Holy Spirit did not make a habit of indwelling in people, both sinned quite grievously. However, in the end the Lord left Saul, never to return again, but He never left David. Why? It has to do with the heart. God knows that we will mess up at times. This is not an excuse for us to sin or to ignore the promptings of the Lord to confront the sin in our lives. However, please remember beloved, God knows your heart and that is what He honors, that is what pleases Him. Even when your flesh is not able to conform fully, He knows the desire in your heart to be fully transformed. He honors and is pleased by your heart!
But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearances, but the Lord looks at the heart.” ~ 1 Samuel 16:7
The Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you. ~ 1 Chronicles 28:9
If you are like me you may read that last part above and think, “Ew, I don’t want Him to judge me based on my heart. I know my intentions are not always pure.” If you’ve ever felt like that or maybe do right now, I have a little secret for you that the Lord revealed to me. Are you ready for it?
Recognizing that your intentions are not always pure is part of what He is looking for. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve prayed – “Lord, I desire you and only you. I want your will, not mine to be done. “ And then I pause and have to add - “And if there are any intentions in my heart or desires that are not in agreement with this, please reveal it to me and transform them!”
Even while knowing I desire the Lord, I know there are still parts of my heart that are selfish. I might as well admit these things to God, because He already knows. He knows my heart better than I do. And He is well pleased with us when we are able to be truthful with Him about what we know is in our hearts. That willingness to acknowledge the darkness in our hearts is what God desires of us. That is what pleases Him. David was called a man after God’s heart. Take some time and read David’s story and the psalms he wrote . He readily admits that his heart is not pure, that he had evil and selfish desires. The difference between David and others such as Saul, is that he acknowledges these things and lays them at God’s feet and asks for God’s Mercy and Transformation. That is a heart in which the Lord will be well pleased.
Today as you journal and pray acknowledge those intentions of your heart that are not pure. Ask the Lord to reveal any areas that are not pure and then confess those things and ask the Lord to transform them. Don’t be ashamed of your weaknesses, instead take them to the Lord and trade them in for His Strength. If you do you will hear Him whisper to you “Well, done my Beloved.” and you like David will be considered a man/woman after God’s heart.
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9
Blessings upon each of you and many thanks for allowing me to share in this journey with you.
Resting in Him,