Friday, November 10, 2006

Sunday Scribblings - "I don't want to be a passenger in my own life."

Written for Sunday Scribblings.

This week's prompt is to write about this quote:

"I don't want to be a passenger in my own life." (Diane Ackerman)

I've thought about this statement for quite a bit now and the more I do, the more I don't agree with it. You see, the problem is I've been trying to be the driver in my life for too long. I keep making wrong turns and getting lost. I try to turn on the navigation system and that helps a bit, but I still get lost. It is a little easier to find my way back out, but those maps are still error prone when my judgment is involved. Basically, I'm ready to finally surrender the driver's seat to someone else who knows the way and can get me there safely. Then I can sit back and enjoy the view.

Now you may be thinking, "She's lost it, totally gone bonkers on us. What is she talking about?"

Here it is. I'm a control freak and a bit of a perfectionist. Maybe that is why I went into Accounting and am successful in this profession. However, the problem is no matter how hard I try, I'm not perfect and I don't know the way. God does though. One of my favorite verses talks about God guiding us down the correct path if we turn away from it.

Whether you turn to the right or to the left , your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it." (Isaiah 30:21)

You see, I've tried driving myself in my life and it does not work. The navigation system is my use of God's Word and His Church to try to find my way. The problem is I'm still depending on myself and my knowledge to interpret the directions AND I'm still the one behind the wheel.

Unlike me when my poor husband is driving, God won't be a backseat driver. He'll let us go where we want and waits for us to look to Him for direction. But He would like it even more if we were to completely let go and surrender to Him. At that time He will lead our lives in His Will and we will see His Power and Glory working in us. That is what I want for my life.

I'm not guaranteed that the road will be smooth all the time with God driving, but I am guaranteed to get to my final destination safely! And what a ride on the way!

1 comment:

Tanya said...

I totally agree Ang. I know God points us in the direction we are to go, but we can't see the road signs and sometimes what turn is ahead. Remember the navigation system analogy? We may be sitting in the driver's seat, but God holds the map! What an adventure....